Waiting

Seems like I’m waiting for a lot lately. Waiting for big things in my personal life. Things that are all tied together.

To explain I have to back up a little. My husband and I are very lucky to have our amazing son. We REALLY know how lucky we are because we tried really hard for him. (Okay, stop giggling, in reality there wasn’t anything that kinky about it. ) Our son was conceived though IVF. At one point we were told that if we had been trying to have a baby even five years earlier there would have been no way for us to get pregnant. I feel really fortunate to live at a time where we were able to conceive know our son.

Now, after saying all that I kind of feel like a brat writing this, we’re trying to have another and I’m impatient. When I got pregnant the last time I though “oh, the next kid will be so easy. We know what we have to do to get pregnant.” Yeah, that wasn’t the case. This time around we’re being thrown a few curve balls and our timeline keeps getting longer and longer. And there’s noting we can do but wait.

As I mentioned we’re now trying for kid number two. Well more waiting than trying. We had a procedure to get sperm in June. I was supposed to start the shots for my end of the deal that same day but the procedure didn’t go as planned and it was decided that my husband should go on medication for three months before we tried again. That put us into October for the actual IVF procedure. Then he went in for a follow-up last week and they told us the procedure wouldn’t be until November now. Not sure how we “lost” another month. Now it’s a game of phone tag with the doctor’s office. My doctors don’t understand why we would need to wait until November either. So now all we can do is play phone tag and wait and hope for October IVF.

On top of all of that we’ve decided to move. We don’t want to move very far but it’s still a production. We love our current house but just want a little more space. Since we don’t HAVE to move we’re being really picky. We basically have a very small area we’re willing to move to – and there aren’t many houses in our price range in that area. So we wait for the perfect (affordable fixer-upper) house to come onto the market. I also have a worry that if we buy a larger house with the though of having another kid and we are never able to have that kid that I’ll always look at those extra rooms with sadness. But I just can’t put my life on hold forever right?

I’m not good at waiting. I’m not good at dealing with things that are out of my control. I’m a doer. I’m a fixer. I’m a researcher and problem solver. When I feel out of control I feel like there’s something reassuring, empowering about this voracious consumption of information. It’s like I’m doing something more than just sitting and waiting. Am I alone?

Where there’s a will there’s a way

I was sent a link to this video yesterday about a painter (nicknamed Grandpa) who was forced to stop painting due to Macular Degeneration. He loved creating but his vision made it next to impossible to see what he was doing. Until he was introduced to Microsoft Paint. That simple, crude tool opened up a whole new world for Grandpa. The ability to zoom in and work on one detail at a time made all the difference.

This video is well worth the eight and a half minute watch.

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The fact that he’s creating really cool work using Microsoft Paint, also brings up a good point. It’s amazing what can happen when you forget what you don’t have and embrace what’s available. Isn’t there a quote that says something to the effect of the best art isn’t despite obstacle but because of them?

Here’s another great example.

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Check out these mind-blowing paintings(?) created in EXCEL! Yes, the spreadsheet program.

What have you come across that made you say, “that was made how?”

Inspiration

I really think that’s what I want this little corner of the internet to be all about, inspiration. Recently I realized that most of what I’m drawn to online, be it blogs, Pinterest, or articles, is all about inspiration. Either someone struck by a stroke of genius and going after it full force or just a simple smart idea.

Over time I hope to be able to share some of the things that inspire me. Maybe the act of sharing will even give me the kick I need to doing more inspirational things myself. (That’s not to self-serving, right?)

Why the name Face Noise? Well, whatt makes things inspirational is usually just that someone has done something. We all talk about great things (basically do nothing more than make a lot of noise with our faces.) Those that inspire don’t just talk they DO.

A little bit about me. I’m a writer by day (I mean it – that’s what I’m actually paid to do.) Please don’t hold that against me. I’m just paid to write, it’s the job of someone else to make sure my spelling and grammar are correct.

When I’m not at work I’m a reader and a knitter.  I’m a mother to an amazing, energetic, happy little boy, and married to an incredible, supportive, funny man who puts up with me (that’s a asking a lot most days).

To get an idea of some of the things that inspire me you can visit my Pinterest board here http://pinterest.com/cplazar/boards/

And I’ll leave you with something that inspired me today, the bathroom house. Others saw a public restroom. She saw a home:

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http://www.telegraph.co.uk/property/9461916/From-public-loo-to-private-home.html